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As we traveled to Mchambo Local Church this weekend we had to stop on the dust road because an ox cart was blocking the way, turned sideways in the road.  The drivers had removed some of the wood from the load and placed it behind the back wheels to be sure the cart didn’t slide into the ditch behind it.

One ox stood passively, waiting.  But the other was obviously exhausted to the point of confusion.  He was twisting and turning under the yoke, trying to swing his body away from the cart until he was perpendicular to the other ox.  But the yoke held his head firm.  One driver was on the road with a long switch beating the beast’s back side to get him back in line.  But the ox refused – or was unable – to cooperate.

I sat behind the driver’s seat, grateful that Jeff was tall enough to block my view.  I couldn’t watch the misery of the animal or the cruelty and desperation of the driver.

Mai Abusa said, “They have probably made many trips today and the animals are just too tired to go on.  I peeked around Jeff again only to see the ox had laid down as best he could, contorted because his head was held by the yoke.  Again, I hid my eyes.

I don’t know how the animal recovered – out of will or fear – but then it was on its feet again and with much prodding and lashes the two oxen straightened the cart and moved just enough for us to pass.

When we returned a couple of hours later there was no sign of the struggle.  And as we got closer to the trading center we saw the same cart, thankfully empty by now, heading back along the path.

So much of the Bible had seemed so distant, if not irrelevant, to me before coming to Malawi.  Stories of shepherds and women at wells, ritual cleansing and towels around waists, and oxen yoked together.  They were not much more than beautiful posters in Sunday School rooms.  But now…

These are no longer metaphors that I struggle to understand; they are weekly realities.  I pass boys on the roadside doing the thankless job of shepherding goats and cattle for long hours in the hot sun or through the rain.  Women rise before the sun to walk long distances to draw water from wells or rivers for daily tasks of cooking and washing.  Before every meal someone, typically a woman, stands at a basin with a pitcher of water to assist each person wash his or her hands.  The chitenjes wrapped around women’s waists serve as towels, tissues for their children, and to wipe sweat from their brows.  And oxen are still yoked together for those with enough good fortune to own them, providing brute strength and labor in the gardens and villages.

To compare a yoke that “is easy and light” with the yoke that the oxen suffered under this weekend allows me to appreciate in new ways Jesus’ offer to take up his yoke.  In Nashville we were yoked by the culture; our jobs, our student loans, the expectations and goals were piled high onto the cart.  I think we were stumbling just as I witnessed on the dust road.  We began to twist and turn but could not free ourselves.  The relentless bills, the persistent call to volunteer, commit and produce kept at us, driving us back into our positions and inching forward.

But by God’s grace we have accepted a new  yoke.  And the burden is so much lighter.  We still have monthly bills and still worry about the balance at the end of the month.  And granted, the burden of student loans has simply been deferred.  We are not so far into this journey that I can still see the other yoke leaning in the corner.  But as we learn to live under new direction it collects more dust.  Unafraid of the one driving us and certain that the load will never be more than we can bear, we move forward with a new lightness and new freedom.

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Discernment and Announcement

To all friends, family, supporters and blog readers -

As early as three months into Our Journey here in Malawi, Jeff and I began to ask one another if we would be ready to leave in one year’s time.  As Christmas and the six-month mark arrived we had some of the lowest and most lonely moments of this mission experience.  But even through the holidays without family, we arrived on the other side still pulled to extend our commitment.

As we began to plan the second half of our year, our passion and excitement continued to grow.  Claire Marin has also turned a corner.  Instead of counting down the days to going home, she has begun to look forward to events and programs next year in Standard 6 at Phoenix International School.

So, with some trepidation and yet another plea for your prayers, we are posting the letter we sent to family and close friends announcing our discernment and decision to extend our commitment in Malawi for another two years!

We hope that you will celebrate with us and the Malawi United Methodist Church this extended partnership.  And that you will start saving your pennies and frequent flyer miles to come visit!

Blessings on the journey,

Kara, Jeff, Carter and Claire Marin

As many of you know Jeff and I have been wondering and struggling with whether or not to extend our time here.  Not only is the ministry fulfilling, but we are also increasingly aware of how long it took to build a foundation and we would love to have the opportunity to build on that foundation.  Rev. Mhone has recently expressed his conviction that our coming was definitely within God’s timing and he can see many benefits to our coming, and an extension of our service.

As all of this stirs in us, Jeff has also discovered some serious logistical problems with our plane tickets.  I don’t need to go into all of it, but airline fine print and the World Cup in South Africa make it too expensive ($3,000+) to fly home any time after April.  So…

We feel called/prompted/persuaded to come home on our scheduled flights, arriving in Nashville on April 15.  Then we will return to Malawi in late August for another 2 years.  deep breath…

At first we were disappointed to be cutting our one year commitment short by over 3 months.  But as plans develop and opportunities arise, we are realizing the gift and opportunity in this plan.  We have a responsibility and desire to share the witness of the Malawi United Methodist Church with each of the congregations, groups and individuals who are supporting us.  We need to plan and develop a sustainable income base that will allow us to follow this call.  And the time at home may allow us to go on the traditional Oliver beach trip, as well as spend quality time with friends and family in Tennessee and Indiana.

Claire Marin is actually supportive of the idea as well, looking forward to Standard 6 at Phoenix, a class trip to Mt. Mulanje, and another year with her new friends.  Jeff will be home schooling her for a few months while in Nashville because she will miss one full term at her school here.  Carter’s flexibility, energy and persistent joy are one of our biggest blessings through each and every adjustment.

We plan to continue paying rent on our house here in Malawi while we are gone, paying Wilson and Fina’s salaries as they maintain the house for us so that we do not have to move AGAIN.

So that’s where we are.  After Christmas we made an intentional effort to release much of the fear that had been controlling our thoughts, fear about what people would think, fear of letting people down, fear of not accomplishing all that we want to.  I think it helped us to see and hear more clearly.  As when we made the decision the first time, our hearts breaks to think about being away from each of you longer.  I pray that you will forgive us, pray with us and love us through yet another transition.

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Digging our own wells

January 7 – 9 I was privileged to participate in an Author Consultation hosted by Africa University Faculty of Theology in partnership with the General Board of Discipleship.  This event provided an opportunity for members of the Faculty of Theology and pastors in the Zimbabwe Area to present book proposals to panels of their peers and theology students.  I cannot adequately convey the excitement, anticipation and good work that came from these two days together.  But I want to share with you the image Steve Bryant used to frame the event and set the context for this new publishing initiative among United Methodists in Africa (as recorded by Nancy Heron of Africa Upper Room)…

Stephen Bryant on behalf of the GBOD welcomed all participants and introduced the partnership and the Special Resourcing Initiative. The purpose of SRI is to provide resources and publishing capacity for resources of Africa. These resources are to meet the lack of resources that are affordable, contextual and appropriate. This is not only about Africa but about the Church globally to hear the voice of faith through African voices. The need being addressed is the lack of appropriate resources for the United Methodist Church in Africa. Developing resources from outside Africa can be costly and therefore limiting to the work of the UMC’s local churches. How do we develop those resources to provide ongoing resources for Africa?

Steve Bryant spoke about the need to “dig our own wells”, like his grandfather who farmed in the arid region of Texas.  His grandfather started by relying on the unpredictable blessing and nourishment of the rains.  While welcome and essential, these rains were not enough to sustain his crops and livelihood.  So he began to dig channels to reach streams that flowed far from his farm.  This irrigation enabled him to draw more water and to produce larger and healthier crops.  But then he dug wells on his own property.  From here he could draw as much water as he needed right where he lived and his farm flourished more than ever before.

That is where the United Methodist Church in Africa finds itself now.  It has relied on and benefited from the gift of resources from the US and Europe.  Though sporadic, they often come at the right time to feed and assist the people.  Pastors have also established channels to receive resources from the West, Bible studies and curriculum.  But these resources never quite fit the needs of the church because they are written from and for a different context.  But now, the United Methodist Church of Africa is digging its own wells.  They are drawing from the experience and expertise of their own clergy and lay people, tapping the vast resources that lie just below the surface.  And these wells of deep water will sustain, nourish and feed the church right from their own land, allowing the church to flourish.

Facutly of Theology Staff, Students, Guest Speaker Lawrence Darmani (MAI), and Steve Bryant

And all the people said, “Amen.”

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Give me the grace to make your Word my home, that I know you more clearly and serve you more faithfully ever more. Amen.  — A Guide to Prayer for All Who Seek God, Reuben Job

This week’s petition in A Guide to Prayer captures my desire and the reality for so many here in Malawi.  The Word of God is their home.  They know the Bible forward and backward, verse-by-verse.  Their depth of knowledge is not the result of Sunday School drills but a deep familiarity and fondness akin to one’s familiarity within one’s own home.  Reading the Bible and coming to know scripture is like knowing every squeaky board in one’s wood floor or just how to turn the nob at the sink to stop the dripping or knowing just where to sit to feel the evening breeze.  Scripture is not a task or an obligation, it is a dwelling place.

My comments are generalities, I know.  Every Christian in Malawi does not have this same depth of knowledge and love of the Bible.  But as I observe and participate in this new culture, I experience a different approach to scripture.  Christians have learned to make the Word their home in a way that I only experienced in rare individuals at home.

The “sword drills” I’ve learned about from friends who grew up in the South are described very differently than the family Bible studies and Bible quizzes that happen here in Malawi.  Each story told, each verse memorized, each detail revealed is a brick that builds their houses, houses that will shelter them for the adversity that is sure to come and threaten their lives, their safety and their faith.  There is a love of scripture and dependence on the Word of God that is startling to my Western sensibilities.  Even using the word “sensibilities” belies my bias toward utility and practicality.

I long to make the Word my home.  To wander through each room, appreciating the details, remembering each person who has entered and the memories they have left there.  I long to reach for Bible verses as easily as I reach for plates and cups in the cupboard.  I want to see God revealed as clearly as the sun breaking through when I pull back the curtains each morning.  And to rest quietly in scripture, enjoying the same stillness and peace of a house at night with children dreaming in their beds and my husband by my side.

I hope for the day that the Word of God is my refuge and strength in the same way that my home is the place I start from and the place to which I always return.

Amen.

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Learning to Pray

I am increasingly thankful for the praying community at Galilea United Methodist Church.  I knew this morning that the men and women at church would pray with me for the tragedy of Haiti, would pray for the families of the dead and injured aid workers, and that they would understand better than some heartbreak, devastation and miracle in the aftermath of an earthquake because of the many that have rocked Karonga in the north of Malawi in recent months.

I remember the prayers that Pastor Kaunda led just before Christmas.  The Malawi students from Malawi had just returned from Africa University in Malawi.  Marie Claire had just left to return to the United States.  And the first earthquakes had just shook Karonga.  Pastor Kaunda called Andi Ngwira forward to represent the students from Africa University and the connection between Malawi and Zimbabwe.  He called Claire Marin forward to represent the global United Methodist Church, and especially our partnership with Belmont United Methodist Church.  And he called Elvyn Nkhata to stand for the people in the north suffering after the earthquake.

representatives of global church, Malawi & Zimbabwe, and Karonga

Then Pastor Kaunda invited us all to pray aloud simultaneously for the three communities, reaching our hands out to Andi, Claire Marin and Elvyn, symbolizing our care and connection to them and to one another.  As the prayers subsided he invited me to pray for Zimbabwe, our students there and our connection; he invited Paul Ngwira to pray for the devastation in Karonga, and asked Amayi Galina, a member from Zimbabwe, to pray for global church and Belmont.

It was a beautiful melding of the spontaneous, impromptu and Pentecost prayers that I have come to love and the intentional and liturgical prayers that feed me and connect me to God and the community.

This morning I anticipated a similar expression of prayer and outpouring of concern and petition.  And rested in it once I arrived.  After the greeting, opening Psalm and hymn we all knelt at our seats and prayed aloud sending a cacophony of thanksgiving and petition to heaven, trusting God to hear each unique voice and particular offering of praise and cry for help.  Then Rev. Mhone read specific prayer requests – lack of rain and hunger in Malawi, Mozambique, and Zimbabwe, the continued rebuilding in Karonga, and the devastation in Haiti, including the death of UMCOR Executive, Sam Dixon, and health of Clint Rabb, in critical condition in Florida.

We prayed again in unison and then allowed our hearts and spirits to unite around the words of the three who were chosen to offer specific prayers.

There is something freeing about praying in a multi-lingual congregation.  While the majority of our service is translated from Chichewa to Enlish or vice versa, prayers are never translated.  These are words for God, words meant to convey the deepest joys and groans of the soul.  When asked to pray people default to their first language, the language that comes most easily, most naturally.  When talking to the Creator, no one wants to be slowed down by self-translation.  So in the cacophony of prayers at Galilea you can hear Chichewa, English, Timbuka, Shona and French.

When I arrived in Malawi I was intimidated by the fast and furious prayers, the prayers that arose from the depths of people’s souls, prayers that flowed so freely and beautifully.  Only now do I understand the freedom in their prayers.  They pray for God alone.  No one (well, most people) are not praying to impress, not praying for any one’s approval or for anyone’s intervention except God.  My desire for theologically sound, M. Div approved, beautiful and poetic prayers is arrogant and unnecessary.  God only wants my honest and authentic praise, thanksgiving, repentance and petition.

It took the experience of not being understood by half of my worshipping community to realize whom I’m really talking to when I pray.  Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy.  Living and learning… and praying!

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