over the past six months I have written fewer and fewer blogs. the time and experiences have touched me in such deep places, troubling me in ways that I can only hope is the Holy Spirit stirring within me but I can’t sort out the rhyme or reason. sometimes interactions make me so angry. sometimes so sad. sometimes the joy is greater than anything I could have imagined. sometimes the experiences make me want to book a flight home immediately. sometimes I never want to leave this place. and sometimes the things that I want to write about reveal too much about confidences and relationships and emotions of those I love.
and tonite there are depths of emotion that I cannot give voice to. there are relationships that cannot be defined. there is growth and change that has been so painful and important for me and my family.
there are not enough words to describe what this call to Malawi means to me. and yet all words are inadequate.